Let's Get Personal!

Alright, so I am now three posts deep. I guess this would be a good time to share a little more about myself.
I come from a very christian, southern baptist family. I am the middle child of an older brother and younger sister. Regardless of what my first post may imply, I love my family and am so fortunate to have come from such a wonderful loving background. I met Scott when I was 17, yes 17 years old! After dating for a few months I realized that he wasn't like most people.
He was insane!
But...I think I am to an extent, so I didn't go running in the other direction!
He is a middle child as well to two sisters. He lost his dad when he was 7, so his mom raised the three of them. Even though I may refer to his family as an episode of Everybody Loves Raymond, I couldn't have asked for better in-laws!

Well, needless to say Scott and I dated for about 4 years. Then came the surprise of our lives, Ainsley was on the way! Now both of us coming from rather religious backgrounds both of our families were pushing for a wedding before I was due. And yes, that is what happened. Do I regret it, not really, would I ever want a re-do wedding ABSOLUTELY!
You may ask yourself why, well let me tell you!
To start off with I WAS PREGNANT!
I ballooned with Ainsley! Previously being a tiny and petite girl squeezing into things wasn't something I was used to.
Well on this day, my wedding day, I had to squeeze myself into the dress that I bought one month before.
Great start to the best day of my life right!
So it is about the time for the ceremony to start, so I go to put on my shoes, my feet are too wide! So now I am walking down the isle barefoot and unable to breathe. Scott on the other hand looked wonderful. His groomsmen looked well...drunk! GREAT! Scott was so nervous! My dad was the one marrying us and when it came time for Scott to say his vows to me, wait for it....
He didn't look at me once! So really, he married my dad. Fantastic!
As you can imagine the reception went just about as well as everything else.
So needless to say a renewal of vows in a few years would be a very welcome suggestion!

So now that I have vented a bit about that day! We had Ainsley on 09/15/2007. She is now, do the math, two and VERY two years old! I do stay at home with her but I also watch my 11 mo niece Jerri during the day. I definitely didn't know what I was signing up for with that one! Jerri started to crawl and that was the day my sweet little girl turned into this possessive monster. She didn't know what was going on or how Jerri was getting to all of her toys! Now as Jerri is getting even faster and wanting to walk they have become enemies! Seriously! They both swing at each other, Jerri grabs chunks of Ainsley's hair. It's a mess!

This brings me to the question that I ask myself everyday.
Do I really want another one? Do I really want to go through this ALL day and ALL night, EVERYDAY?
I still do not have the answer to that question!

Potty Training...again?!

Wait a second I only have one kid!
I have already done the potty training!
What is going on?! I was very proud when I was able to say that Ainsley was fully potty trained before her second birthday. Other than over night and nap time she never slipped up. Then one day she woke up a apparently decided playing was much more fun than getting up and going potty. It wasn't just a few drops in her pants, no these were full blown soaked through the pants accidents. Or are they? Are they really accidents or is this some sort of defiant power struggle that she has figured out? Can my two year old really be this manipulative? A perfect example of why I think she just doesn't care anymore. I took her to Nana's house and she was squatting down playing with toys and muttered something to me but in a strained voice. I finally look over and her and sure enough my child is peeing right on the floor, I mean a freaking puddle of pee like she was a dog marking her territory! What is going on?!

So we have been going through this little phase for about a month now and she has gotten a lot better but still not back to where she was. She will also still have times where she pees through her pants. Fortunately, she always goes number 2 in the potty. So now here is what I want to know! Are these really accidents, because sometimes she does go in the potty and others she starts in her pants but is able to stop it and get to the potty. Or is this in fact just plain out defiance? Like does she just not feel like going so she's not, like I said she always goes number 2 in the potty so she clearly knows how to hold stuff in!
Is this a common thing that happens? I am pretty sure not one of the potty training books say anything thing about this!
Has anyone else gone through something like this? If so how did you get through it and get them back on track? That said how can I get her potty trained through the night without having to wake up 5 times and change her sheets. She won't go to sleep until she has a diaper on for some reason so she just plays then says she has to go potty, but doesn't. This cycle repeats until I am tired of the false potty alarms and I just give up a put a diaper on her, then poof she is out like a light! Wakes up the next morning with a full diaper! I am baffled!

Should your life be a sitcom?

There are so many people I know that would answer yes to this question. I would most definitely join that group, if in fact, I didn't already believe there is a sitcom that describes my life almost to a T. Everybody Loves Raymond! For those who have seen the show you know what I am talking about. The nagging in-laws that live across the street and are always over, the brother who never leaves and eats all of the food, and of course all of the drama that goes along with it.
In my case my mother-in-law lives 5 minutes up the road. I watch Scott's oldest sisters daughter everyday, Scott's younger sister is my best friend who is always here eating our food! Oh my is there drama! I don't think a day has gone by in the past year that I haven't seen someone from his family. Fortunately for me my mother-in-law rocks and is by no means "Marie".
All in all it's really not so bad having family around a lot...you always have a sitter!

The dreaded Holidays! (or are they?)

Ok, so this is my very first blog! Wow, talk about pressure!

Well I am a SAHM. I have a two year old monster named Ainsley!

Hmm Stay at home mother, sounds like a dream right?! I do have to say I am blessed to be able to stay at home. However, it's not really a choice, daycare is so damn expensive I am not sure how we haven't completely returned to the 50's where every woman stays at home!
Staying at home ALL DAY EVERY DAY can wear on someone's nerves! Just go to the park or mall right? That is a lovely solution when you have transportation. Our ONE drivable vehicle is used to take Scott to work everyday.

Enough about that, I get stressed thinking about it!

So Thanksgiving is coming up! I haven't really decided if I am excited or completely dreading it. I mean between traveling 30 minutes to my parents house just to stay a few hours eat a little bit and get a guilt trip because we have to leave so soon to drive 30 minutes back to see Scott's family. I do have to say after a day filled with my family a nice dinner and wine (lots) with his family doesn't really sound too bad!